Have you ever....

Have you ever felt the emptiness?
The sting of suppressed tears, 
clouding your vision, 
making the world swim before your eyes?
An ache of loneliness and longing...
and you don't quite know the source?
A restlessness that comes from nowhere?
Near panic, but at what?
Have you ever felt the break coming...
powerless to make it stop,
praying that you can find 
a place away from prying eyes
to fall apart?
Have you ever been so close to the edge
that you feel vertigo's pull?
Tried to balance and back away
before the fall?
Wished desperately for someone,
anyone,
to hold you
and help you
hold it together?
And wept to find yourself alone?
Have you ever?


....yeah, well, neither have I.

Work in progress....

Ok, so normally I don't post unless I have a finished piece.... but I'm feeling somekinda way.  And I wrote this on the fly... seriously, my poet friends/poetically inclined friends, leave a comment... help me pull the rest of this out of my gut so my stomach will stop aching.... Peace and Love!

I feel a pressure to be unshakable
an expectation to be unmoved
an assumption that I am indestructible 
a theory as yet unproved 


Inside I feel the weakening
I hear the wind blow through the cracks
there is creaking throughout my structure
I'd fall apart if I relaxed.


Like a false front on a building
I try not to show the wear
But my soul is silently shrieking
and collapse is what I fear.

Physics

I tried playing with some Haiku...
Several Haiku as a matter of fact, to create a longer poem.
Let me know what you think.

It's an old debate

with no clear answer to it.

Which one wins the fight?

Unstoppable force?

Or Immovable object?

Physics is a bitch.

You, unstoppable.

Never in one place for long,

barely slowing down.

I, immovable,

never far from home for long, 

need familiar ground.

Your force compelling,

my gravity is quite strong.

Neither can prevail.

See, it is win/win

if we throw out the rule book.

Physics, go to hell.

Welcome, Collision!

Our friction makes the best sparks...

MY Big Bang Theory!

Hello Again

I have some stuff I have been working on.... not quite ready for posting, but I think a few more tweaks, and it will be.  I appreciate everyone who stops by and rummages around in here.  Something will be up by Saturday.


Peace to you all and be blessed!

Double Standards

Unquestioningly I expect,

and would be offended

if I didn't get,

your absolute belief

in what I tell you.

When I say how I feel,

you should see truth.

No doubts, no reservations

or misgivings.

Absolute confidence,

absolute certainty.

I expect nothing less

when I lay myself on the line...

open my life's book

to the chapter of my heart.

And on my part,

I find,

much to my own disappointment,

that I do not return the favor

in kind.

I am the place where "I love you"

meets the arched eyebrow,

and "I miss you"

encounters "Oh yeah??"

*side-eye*

I am the contradictory ground

where saying what I mean

meets skepticism

of what I hear,

failing to believe.

And I know it sounds cliche,

but I'm gonna say it anyway,

it's all me,

and not you.

There's no reason for disbelief

based upon reality...

but in my mind,

dangerous ground.

That's the place

where the arguments thrive,

between myself and I.

Where, "I love you,"

meets "right....why?"

Where, "I only wanna be with you,"

meets "Until something better comes along."

Where "You're beautiful,"

and "He's full of it,"

battle it out for days.

And days

and days....

I'm careful, though,

not to let it show

on the outside.

Regardless of the battle

raging on the inside,

I bluff.

Conceal the doubt,

and insecurity.

I am covert in the questions

plaguing me.

Allow nothing to show.

A confident front

for you to see.

Only that

and a demand

for your confidence in me.